Paradox

This is a story I wrote shortly after I read Twilight. It is not at all meant to be a spin-off, or in any way based on Stephanie Meyers books, but was inspired by the concept of someone able to read minds. I'm very fond of this piece, and the main character is by far one of my favorites. I would ask something...who is it? I wrote this with no discernable traits, and while I have a vivid image of the character in my own mind, I'm curious to see what others may think of who stars in this piece.


Paradox
By Keziah Lee

It is no small thing to possess the ability to write one’s thought’s down on paper. Consequently, it is no small thing to possess the ability to read one’s thoughts after they have been placed on said paper. It is a skill that, to the best of our knowledge, only the human race possesses. Therefore, it must be something important—this being able to make markings and have another decipher their meaning. In fact, it must be so important that the entire human race must learn how to do this. But there is another skill, even more important, that very few human beings possess.

To be perfectly truthful, I have only met one other person in the course of my life, besides myself, who possessed this extraordinary gift, and he is long since passed away. But what is this gift? Ah, that is the eternal question. You see, I have yet to decide whether it is truly a gift or a curse. For unlike the ability to make sign on paper and then read what it says, my ‘gift’ is much less appreciated.

For who would appreciate a neighbor who can write their thoughts, not on paper, but on the surface of another’s mind? And likewise, who would appreciate a neighbor who can read the thoughts already written on said mind? That is my gift and my curse. That is my privilege and my burden. It is my doom and my destiny. It is my love and my hate. It is my life and my death.

Without this ability, I would have perished long ago, but with it, I am doomed to a half-life, a half-death. I cannot turn this power off. I cannot choose when to use it and when not to. I walk down the street and I see thoughts hovering above people’s heads. I can choose not to look at most, but some scream out like billboards. If I had the chance, I could put it to good use. I could tell if someone was plotting murder, and I could stop it, but to do so, I would need people to believe me. I would need the help of the police department, the government, and that is something I cannot get.

If I were to hand myself over to the government, I would not be used to stop murders. I would be shoved into the first top-secret laboratory they found and plugged into a room full of computers. That is my doom. I am cursed with a gift that could be used to help people, but to reveal it is to sign my own death warrant. To use it in secrecy, though, I must live in the shadows. If I slip up, if I accidently reveal myself, I must leave. I can never establish any permanency; I must always be prepared to leave the area at the drop of a hat.

But you see, it is a cyclical curse. For if I wish to use it to help people, I must keep it a secret. If I keep it a secret, I must live in secrecy. If I live in secrecy, I become suspected. If I become suspected, I must leave. And if I leave, I see more people whom I want to help.

That is the paradox of my life. Do I use it or ignore it? Am I good or evil? Do I stay hidden or reveal myself? Do I live…or do I die.

Treasures From the Past

Well, I was sifting through the 300 and something old e-mails in my account, and I came upon some documents I'd sent to myself so that I could print them...about a year or two ago. Many of these were stories I'd lost when my hard drive crashed last year, and I was thrilled to find them again.

This one is a poem I wrote for one of my many started projects...the book was to be entitled "Window Soul," and is the story of a young woman who was born with the ability to travel between the nine planes of existence. At the same time, however, a powerful demon is released from his prison, and the girl proves to be the only one who can track him throughout the planes. Maybe someday I'll finish it, but for now, I'll be content with the poem.

By the way, this was written several years ago, and some of the rhymes are...less than what they could be :). I still like it, and it brings back many memories of the stories I wrote back when I had the time to dedicate hours to their conception. Enjoy :)

Window Soul
By Keziah Roy



When planes align, what evil brings
This rare and wondrous sight?
One child born, one hell released
This dark and evil night.

How grand and terr’ble to behold
When crimson eyes did stare
In mental anguish quite deserved
With molten rock for air.

A painful yet life-bringing night,
A window now is born.
With auburn hair and eyes so green,
She sees through ev’ry door.

Nine planes of life, nine steps of hell
The same for heavens too.
Nine faerie ranks, nine demons cruel
Nine angels keeping good

The chance of all aligning, though,
Nine thousand times to one.
The chance of balance now restored?
Nine thousand times to none.

Masks

This is the response to my February 15 writing prompt for my Writing the Year Away blog...I'm posting it here due to it's excessive length (most of the other prompts are quite short, and I usually reserve my lengthy ones for here). Anyway, the prompt was "Don't come in yet, I have to put my face on!" I had a hard time with it at first, struggling with the plot. I knew that I could have taken the easy way out and written something about putting makeup on, but I really wanted something unique and very much my own. Finally, I believe I've succeeded. And so, without further ado, I give you my story, Le Masque*.

*Note (and further ado :P): I chose the title in French for a reason currently unknown to me...I think it's because of the spelling...I don't speak French, but I love the way they spell 'masque,' and I think it adds something that "The Mask" simply doesn't have.
　
　
Le Masque

By Keziah Roy

"Don’t come in yet! I have to put my face on!" The squeal erupted as soon as the entry light blinked. An exasperated chuckle came from outside the door, but the light stopped blinking. The young woman inside sighed in relief and turned back to the mirror, carefully fitting the iridescent mask over her face. It was the height of fashion—to be seen in public without a mask was simply unheard of, in fact, in most places, it was considered a crime to show your unmasked face anywhere other than your own home.

Xhana’s mask was highly fashionable, made of a new bio-cloth, form-fitting and synched with her facial muscles so as to move seamlessly when she spoke, smiled, ate—even kissed. The mask was iridescent, shimmering like water, and making a smooth transition from a pure lavender in the lower left, to a crystalline aquamarine at the right temple.

Xhana smiled into the mirror, gently arranging into decorative whorls the slender strands affixed to the edges of the mask. She tweaked it carefully, making sure that the spirals trailed perfectly down her elegant throat, drawing subtle attention to her flawless skin and low, angled neckline. The upper strands she entwined in her hair, careful not to upset the complex arrangement as she did so. With a satisfied sigh, she added the final touch—colored contacts that gave her eyes the same shimmering effect as the mask. Giving herself one final once-over, she turned to the door and activated the entry pad.

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Dante watched the entry light blink rapidly three times as the door prepared to open. It wavered first, then suddenly winked out, disappearing with a slight popping sound. He sighed, disliking the abruptness of the newest technologies. The sigh quickly turned to a smile as Xhana glided out, twirling gracefully to show off her new mask and gown.

The dress was stunning, created of light, flowing fabric that alternately clung and floated about her like water, the vee of her neckline reaching to her jewel-adorned navel, yet so narrow, it showed only a thin slice of skin. The skirt was dagged, it’s asymmetrical points dancing about her legs in a multilayered cloud of lavender and aquamarine. The decorative tendrils of her mask curled seductively down her throat, drawing his gaze inevitably to the plunging neckline. Slowly, appreciatively, his gaze traveled back up to her face, grudgingly admiring the fashionable mask.

He disliked the custom of covering your face with a mask before letting others see you, it seemed false to him, false and self-deprecating, as if you believed your true face was unworthy of being shown to others. The masks, too, paved the way for deceit, making it easy to present yourself as something different than what you really were. And yet the whole country was filled with them, women wearing decorative, brightly colored ones, and men generally choosing simple, darker ones. Dante struggled with the practice everyday, bucking the system by wearing only a half-mask, one that split his face down a diagonal, leaving visible his left eye, part of his nose, his left cheek, and his mouth and chin. He often got strange looks, and had even on occasion been requested to leave a restaurant or shop.

Xhana flashed him a blinding smile as she completed her final turn, sauntering up to him and leaning in for a kiss. He almost flinched as his lips touched the fabric of her mask. No, he didn’t simply dislike the masks, he hated them. It hadn’t been so bad when he was younger, and the masks didn’t cover everything, but now—now they smothered everything, covering from the hairline to the throat, leaving only the eyes visible. The new cloth was woven in such a way that it could even cover lips, an atrocity in Dante’s mind. There was a certain intimacy about touching your bare lips to someone else’s, an intimacy that was slowly being lost. He knew many couples who had never seen each others’ faces, not even in the bedroom. Dante himself had never seen Xhana’s face, and the two had been together for nearly two years.

That’s not to say that he had never seen her skin, no, Xhana preferred the simple half-masks when she was at home—she said they were more comfortable—but even though he’d asked her, she simply refused to take it off completely. She wasn’t harsh or angry when he asked, she just laughed and shook her head, as if she found it comical that he would want to see her paltry features. Why would he want to see her face when he could look at a beautiful mask, designed specifically to give pleasure to the viewer?

Dante had given up trying to explain to her that he would find her face more beautiful than any mask, and had reluctantly accepted the fact that he lived in a world where the human face was considered an abomination.

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Dante and Xhana left the show almost as soon as it was over, both with differing opinions of the performance. It was a new show, a historical romance that took place back in the 2100s, a time when, historically, there were no masks. Dante had been frustrated from almost the moment the show began, for although the time period was maskless, the actors were not. Granted, the costumers had given them masks that closely mimicked human features, but still, they were masks nonetheless. Xhana, on the other hand, had gushed about it, admiring the ‘accuracy’ and ‘detail’ of the costumes. Not wanting to upset her, or waste his energy on a futile battle, Dante remained silent on the matter.

When they arrived back at Xhana’s apartment, Dante went in with her. He usually spent the weekends with her, as his apartment was near the Industrial Sector, where he worked as manager of one of the many automated factories. Xhana’s home, on the other hand, was in the University Sector, only one block away from the Entertainment Sector. Xhana was a student, but had the entire weekend off, so that was the time they spent together.

After settling in, taking off their coats and such, Dante excused himself, going into the bedroom to change. The first thing he did upon closing the door was rip the mask off his face and sink down into the hoverbed. He lay back on the soft blankets, allowing the bed to cushion him gently. It had been a long day, and it was a relief to get the stifling fabric off his skin.

He allowed himself a few deep breaths before standing and stripping off his suit. Comfortable sweat pants were tugged on, and he went to stand in front of the mirror, staring at his face in the silvery glass. He had dark brown hair, almost black, and his skin was a light tan. His eyes were the color of dark chocolate, deep and thoughtful. His nose was straight, his cheekbones well defined, his mouth expressive. It wasn’t an unattractive face, he thought, but attractiveness was governed by different rules now. Rules that didn’t include an actual face.

The soft popping of the door startled him, and he turned swiftly, just in time to see the stark look of shock on Xhana’s features as she beheld his naked face. Rather than snatch up his mask to hide it, he met her gaze, holding it, refusing to feel ashamed of himself. Her face slowly turned from shock to wonder, and she took an unconscious step forward, then another. In moments, she was standing before him, her eyes wide under the glittering mask. She reached out, brushing her fingertips lightly across his cheek, brow furrowing slightly as she felt the roughness of his unshaven skin.

"You’re…you’re beautiful," she breathed.

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Xhana stood enraptured, her eyes fixed on Dante’s face. So this was what was underneath the mask! Why, there was nothing hideous about it, no reason to cover it up. He was right, had always been right, someone’s face was truly important, it was truly who they were. She could tell just by looking at his face, at his proud cheekbones and strong nose, that he was a man of strength, of courage, of independence. His mouth, however, was softer, prone to sudden smiles or laughter. These were all elements that were lost when a mask was worn, even a half-mask like Dante’s.

She leaned forward, cupping his face, her mouth inches from his. She feathered a kiss across his cheek, then frowned, sensing that something was wrong. She stepped back, lightly touching her fingers to her mouth, to the mask covering her lips. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath as she raised trembling fingers to the edges of her expensive mask. In one swift movement, before she lost her courage, she snatched it from her face and tossed it to the ground. Her eyes stayed shut, unable to look at him, unable to see the inevitable rejection in his eyes when he saw that she wasn’t beautiful, that without her mask she was just Xhana, not the brilliant student, not the life of the party, just Xhana, the young woman.

The soft touch of his hands on her cheeks caused her to open her eyes slowly, looking up at him through the haze of tears that threatened to fall from her eyes. He was smiling softly, tenderly, and as he bent to touch his lips to hers in a gentle caress, he whispered two words, just two, and her world was changed forever.

"Thank you."

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Well, I hope you enjoyed it, and thanks for reading!

A Sonnet

I was sitting in Kim Napolitano's AP English class this morning, and was thinking about sonnets. She had her students write them for homework, as they're reading Macbeth. So as I sat listening to the students read aloud, I began to write. This is the fruit of my labors.


Un-Finding God
A Sonnet

This pond'ring mind is wond'ring, What Is God?
A being omniscient, all powerful,
And wondrous, too, is he. Where he hath trod,
Supposedly, bloom flowers sweet and full.
Yet still I'm wond'ring, doth h'exist at all?
He seems quite contradict'ry, 'tis not peace
He wants to bring. 'Tis Love his preachings call,
Yet with fiery swords he threatens, and seeds
Of discord he spreads. Neighbors 'gainst their friends,
And mother 'gainst child pits he. Sayest he,
"Me thou canst follow, lest thou hateth i'the end."
This seems quite awful and vicious to me,
And now my belief I find firm, secure.
In denouncing this 'god,' I've found my cure.



I'd like to point out briefly that sonnets are not my forte, as I'm sure you can tell. Also, as far as syllabic structure goes, each line is in iambic pentameter (10 syllables). One must read the words with apostrophes as having one less syllable, seeing as how the vowel is removed. Also, several words are slurred together so as to make them one syllable. And if there are those who think this is cheating, I learned the technique from the greatest of all--William Shakespeare. :)

Writer's Block

Writer's block is never a fun thing. We all hate that feeling, when you're staring at a blank page, not knowing what to write, or even how to write. It's the moment when all ideas seem to fade away, to leave you behind as they run through star-lit skies that you can't see. The following story is something, ironically, that I wrote while in the middle of writer's block. I wanted to write something, but didn't know what, and this is what came out. It's not very long, and seemed a lot longer on the small pieces of paper on which I wrote it, but it serves its purpose. Sometimes it is not the length of the story, but the content which shows its true meaning. And so here it is, my story, my little bit of a world outside of our own, a world that may not truly exist anywhere but in these few words.


Unblocking the Block

By Keziah Roy


She sighed, looking down at the blank sheet of paper before her. It was perfect, no lines, pure white, and unblemished. It was one of the most daunting sights she'd ever seen. With what words could she mar this perfect page? Surely they must be wondrous, if they were to cover the pristine paper in squiggles of blue ink. Could she really find the right words to fill the page?

She held the pen poised to write, hovering just above the paper. But still, she couldn't bring herself to mark the page. Long moments stretched by, moments filled with indecision. The pen hovered, never touching the paper, never making a mark. Finally, she closed her eyes, took a breath, and wrote. One word was all she needed, and the wall crumbled, freeing the words in her mind. Her pen flew, dancing across the page, filling it with wondrous sights and glorious words.

Time flew, became elastic, then ceased to exist entirely. Her world contracted, focusing in on the words rapidly filling the page. Nothing else mattered. Her words were alive, leaping from her pen to create a world of bright colors and tinkling bells. Music filled the air, bringing the heady scent of incense along with it. Characters came alive with the words, moving through the streets, conversing with each other, living their lives in their own world, the world created from nothing but pen and ink.

The silvery threads of imagination wove through the words, binding them in a living magic, keeping them alive for ages to come. Finally, the pen stopped. She lifted her head and smiled. Four pages sat before her, each one filled with writing. She blinked several times, ridding herself of the leftover images. She set the pen down and gathered up the papers. As she left the table, she smiled. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she could still hear faint strains of music, and the scent of incense still wafted faintly through the air.

Stories and Ribbons

I have many facets, many aspects to my personality, some that even I don't know everything about. But my fingers have a personality all their own. They write. I can't help it, I have no control over them. They simply write. The stories that slip out are wondrous, full of magic and grace. Each one is different, with a unique setting, intricate characters, and their own bit of flair. Some are dearer to my heart than others, but I can't help but love each one.

It's funny, though. I truly have no control over my stories. Sometimes I just have to write, and other times I can't even find the simplest word. It's as if my fingers are separate from my mind, writing not what I tell them, but what the stories want written. I've gone for weeks without writing a single paragraph, then gotten an idea that led to my writing nonstop for two straight days. Needless to say, after filling four-and-a-half pages with tiny, cramped writing, I had to wear a wrist brace for a week. Ironically, it's one of the stories I haven't finished yet...

Here's one of my favorites. I wrote it during math class (along with many of my stories...how did I pass that class, again?). It was shortly after we'd finished Macbeth in my AP English class, so my mind was rather preoccupied with Shakespeare's choice of words. This particular story started as most of my stories do, with a single phrase. It's funny how often that happens to me. I'll be thinking about something completely disconnected from a story, then a word or phrase will slip into my head. I'll write it down, and twenty minutes later, I have half a story scrawled down on the back of my math homework.

Anyway, this is one of my very favorites. It's titled Ribbons, and is a little different from most of my works, but I think you'll enjoy it.

*NOTE: All works of fiction published in this blog are copyright by Keziah J.E. Roy.

Ribbons
By Keziah Roy

Strands of color wrapped around a slender wrist. My wrist. Crimson droplets staining the colors incarnadine red. Streamers of red fluttering before my eyes. I try to grab them, but they dance away like scarlet butterflies. My fingers just brush them and they seem to implode, staining my fingers to match the reddened bracelet around my wrist.

The rest of the colors fade away as the petal-soft crimson engulfs them, setting my vision awash in a multitudinous haze of crimson, scarlet, carmine, and blood red. I see nothing else. I hear nothing but a quiet buzz, the buzz of struggling life. I smell nothing but a faint metallic tang, the same tang that has slid between my lips and is now resting on my tongue. I recognize it as coming from the pretty red haze, the red that has me feeling like I’m lying in a bed of liquid rose petals. I was given roses once—last year, when I turned eighteen, my boyfriend sent me eighteen beautiful crimson roses. But they smelled beautiful as well; smelled like flowers instead of blood.

That’s what it is, I realize, blood. I’m not lying among flowers, I’m lying in blood, my blood. I have no idea why; I can’t remember anything about now. I try to move, but I can’t feel my body. I don’t even know if I still have a body. I must, because otherwise I’d be dead, and I can’t be dead because then I wouldn’t be thinking. Oh Lord, now I’m confusing myself.

I try to open my eyes, but nothing changes. Are they open already? Or is every bit of me numb and paralyzed? I still see the red blood ribbons dancing around my vision, tantalizing me with their delicate beauty. Then I hear another sound, a high-pitched wailing. It comes closer, but I don’t recognize it; it seems alien amidst the fluttering ribbons. I hear more sounds, frantic bustling sounds, and the ribbons tilt and slide around my vision. Maybe I’m moving, or being moved—I can’t tell. For all I know, I could be rolling down a grassy hill covered in flowers. No, no I couldn’t be. It’s winter—there’re no flowers. Wait. It’s winter. Why am I not cold? It just snowed—I should be freezing my butt off. That is, if I still have one.

The ribbons suddenly stop tilting and sliding around, and the wailing sound starts again, this time much louder. It’s irritating and I wish it would stop, but then again, I don’t even know if it’s really real. You can’t stop something if it isn’t there in the first place.

All the frantic sounds are gone now, too. They’ve been replaced with a low, soothing drone. The ribbons are doing a waltz in front of me now, a slow, rhythmic sway. I never learned how to waltz properly. I always wanted to, but I have two left feet and never managed to get the steps right. At least, I think I have two left feet—I may not anymore.

The ribbons are moving slower now, fading slowly to dark. I can’t tell if my eyes are closing or if I even have eyes anymore. The red gets darker and darker, and I feel a thick mist fading over me, fogging my brain and erasing my thoughts. If I have thoughts anymore, that is. The mist is thicker, overwhelming me with its density. I disappear into the cloud, still wondering where I am.

Goodnight.

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Aleira groggily opened her eyes, blinking them in the bright whiteness of the hospital room. She looked around, trying to make some sense out of her unfamiliar surroundings. She saw a pile of flowers, cards, and balloons, and, sitting next to them, her mother.

Janice moved quickly to her daughter’s side when she saw the movement. Her worried expression eased a fraction at the realization that Aleira was finally awake. Her eyes, however, are still anxious as she answered her daughter’s unspoken question.

“Aleira, honey? There’s been an accident.”